Dead Letters

I get this high all the time when I just want to write random shit. I have had this blog for how long...3 years now. And it hasn't been inactive. I mean I have been writing, writing and writing. And what I learnt in these 3 years is that, the period when I have not written anything, has been the time when I've been most unstable, emotionally or mentally.

It is better to write off whatever is there in the mind than just keep it there. If you can't tell anyone, tell your virtual self.

The fact that I'm leaving home a month early before my vacations are getting over is sort of confusing me. There is an entire lifetime which is going to start after thos 26 hours in train. I'm also looking forward to it, but also too many thoughts are rushing into the head. The number of things I want to do, number of people I want to talk to, number of people I am going to miss, number of times I would feel like crying, number of times I'd want to laugh,...is just increasing, and the sheer number of this is so huge, that no matter what I do, or where I am in Hyderabad, or with whom I am there, the number will grow bigger and bigger.

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1. I remember watching a channel called ATN when I was 6 or 7 years old which used to play Micheal Jackson. And me and Venus used to get so scared of him. At least used to get scared and fascinated at the same time by the way MJ danced. I'm not an MJ fan, but will miss him, whatever the reason may be.
2. Time to travel again to Hyderabad. I don't know why exactly I'm going to back to Hyderabad when I still have a month long vacation still left. When I was coming back from Hyderabad to Jaipur, I had a 30 hours long journey. And I sat for 30 hours straight in the uppermost berth reading a book which I finished before the journey got over! All this led to a horrible backache.
3. I am really scared about my result this time.
4. I learnt a lot of things in the past 2 weeks.
5. What is going to happen in the next 2 months really freaks me out and does not let me sleep, just too curious.
6. I'm going to write a 7th random thing because recently I've become really superstitious. And 6 feels a little satanic.
7. It feels as if I need to build a whole wall, where I have to make that cement, and lay every brick one by one, but all the raw material is being sourced by someone else.

Take care :)

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Sometimes some conversations make you really sad after they're over. As in the moment they get over you'd feel really sad, because they'r like straight knives on your mind, heart and whatever.

But then, later on, with course of time, these conversations make you fuck Happy! Not because they made you realize something, but because they had an impact on your sub-conscious mind. These are the kind of conversations everyone needs. Just pay attention, when they come. Everytime you're sad, suddenly you'll go happy high :) !

I know I'm too vague..but that's how I am. Draw the lines between the words and you'll know what I mean ;) ...

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It was a conversation with a friend of mine about something. Something that was bothering both of us, like a common thing bothering us in our lives separately.

Irritated, pained, fucked-up, that’s what we felt. And when you feel that way, all you want to do is give-up. But is giving up an option to solve the problem that is bothering us? Of course, it is, but its not the best thing we can do.

It’s the worst thing.

I know one thing, facing the trouble makes you stronger, whether you fall hard after facing it or just get lucky and win over it. If quitting was an option, then no one would ever do anything. There wouldn’t have been any Taj Mahal, India would still be under the British, I would still be in the 12th standard or dead by now.

Quitting is against the laws of nature. Water never stops flowing if there is a dead end. It will cut through the land and make way. And in case it’s a pit, the water fills the pit and then starts overflowing outside and moves ahead. There is no stopping.

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There are times when you just feel like writing. I only write when I feel like writing...I mean when I feel like writing but I don't know what to write about. Its been a long long time...ok whatever.

I'll start with what is up with me.

Nothing.

I don't know.

My head was going mad all these days.

Weird things happening.

Unexpected. Some made me too happy that I'd cry, some made me so sad that crying was just not enough.

Under pressure, well not so much, the state of my mind if always calm, the habit of exaggeration never leaves.

Took me a long time to realize what was happening in every way.

Too many options I had for choosing, led me to utter confusion. Sometimes, you just don't need options.

But now, its time. Its time to Play! Play with everything ;) ! Forget and Play!

(do tell me if you can understand anything)

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I had the weirdest week of life or may be since a very long time since I do not remember my childhood days (lol). I just got back from Jaipur to Hyderabad. It was like the starting of my new year last week..I mean new semester..and new stuff and etc. I had thought a lot about starting it with a bang. But, things take their turn...I mean when you least expect something, when I say least I mean no expectations at all. I cannot elaborate over what exactly I'm talking about..but damn! the week was a pain in the head..also confusing...but still adventurous.

Its been a long long time..days have passed..weeks have passed..months have passed..and now the year is going to end. I still write 2007 instead of 2008, still feel as if the new year has just started when it is about to get over. So many things have happened, so many have not. So many changes took place, and so much is still the same. Priorities need to be redefined and many things have to be realized. I came to know so many things but just couldn't use that knowledge for any better. Or may be I did? I don't know.

Waiting for something to happen that I've most awaited for. Things might go out of hand..if I lose my cool. So many wishes I have for Christmas and so many resolutions for new year to be made. So many things I want to achieve in the New Year and so many things to think on.....May this be the final lap of all the confusions and jading..... :)

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